Vol. III - PrayLude

Whaddup world?! It’s been a GOOD minute since I last put pen to paper to share my thoughts with others. Week 1…the first week of Vol. III is officially in the books! It feels like it too!!

I’m not sure if it’s because I’m back in the office at my 9-to-5 now, or if this is just what it feels like on the other side of completing the assignment and now having to grow and nurture it after release. I think I’m using more “muscles” continuing the rollout than I did actually creating the EP — or maybe it’s just a different set of muscles I haven’t exercised in some years.

It was one thing developing the rollout concept and creating the first batch of posts. It’s another thing entirely maintaining the consistency and sticking to the plan now that the first steps have been taken and I’m actually “outside” with Vol. III.

Everything in me has been screaming to do the exact opposite of what produces fruit through consistency and good stewardship. Sleeping…then sleeping even more, for one.

Toward the end of finishing Vol. III, I came across Proverbs 6:10-11, and I’ve continually revisited it as a reminder to combat the desire to “rest” when, in reality, it’s delay.

Then there’s the constant feeling of wanting to create something “new.” Sample flips are always popping into my head, and along with them comes the urge to run straight to the lab. But then I hear this quiet voice ask:

“How can you create new stuff when you already have a current project requiring a different type of ‘new’ from you — one that will actually help your stewardship?”

Yeah…that’s discipline talking for sure!

I recently read something that described these kinds of actions as self-sabotage tied to battling an orphan spirit. I won’t turn this into a therapy session, but during this season I’ve been intentional about actually applying the lessons I’ve learned from past mistakes and spiritual warfare.

That’s looked like:

• staying in prayer

• starting my mornings with GOD

• finding rest in prayer instead of just sleep

• taking every decision before Him

• and watching the thoughts and conversations I entertain so I don’t come into agreement with anything trying to hinder GOD’S plan for my life.

Pretty much battling against anything that would throw me back into a perpetual loop of: starting something, seeing leaves on a tree that bears no fruit, tearing it down, then starting over again…and again.

Those last few lines might’ve missed some people. Maybe I’ll come back and break that down another time.

Because it’s one thing to declare these things from the “safety” of home. It’s another thing to actually walk them out in everyday life:

• dealing with unpredictable situations

• navigating personalities and conversations at work

• or even fighting the temptation to overindulge in distractions during downtime.

(That last one? Yeah…definitely guilty!)

A section of scripture that’s really been helping me battle a lot of this lately has been Colossians 3 — the whole chapter.

If Ephesians 6 is the outer armor we’re told to put on, then Colossians 3 has felt like the inner lining I put on before reaching for the breastplate, boots, and shield.

Lately I’ve found myself replaying The PrayLude throughout the day. There’s something about the moment when His Poetic Word says, “don’t fall for the trickery,” that helps me lock back in whenever my mind starts drifting or my character starts showing signs of operating more in the flesh than in His Spirit.

Especially while pushing content.

It’s easy to get lost in algorithms, numbers, self-image, and performance instead of focusing on reflecting the image of Christ.

And honestly, that’s why stewarding this project has become bigger than just promoting beats or building a brand.

This rollout has been keeping me honest!

It’s been keeping me closer to GOD.

And it’s been constantly checking, reshaping, and refining my heart and desires in real time.

🎶 GodSouL