Vol. III - ManyMansions

Two songs in, and it already feels like time is flying by at the end of these weeks — even though in the middle of them, every single day feels like crunch time.

Lowkey, the days I shoot video content have me shook sometimes, because even I don’t know what’s going to come across on the screen.

Am I delivering a message that’s meant to help somebody through a current situation? Is this a second round of spiritual therapy for me??

(GOD PLEASE don’t have me out here looking too crazy!)

And what does it say if I’m still discovering things about myself — and about what I created — in real time, in front of people? Does that make me less credible to even speak on these things?

Now you might be asking: what does any of this have to do with Vol. III and Many Mansions?

Glad you asked.

It’s the double-mindedness again.

Are we standing firm on His Word, or are we allowing our own voice — along with the enemy’s — to take control of the aux cord?

This week brought a LOT of mental warfare, which forced me deeper into my prayer closet:

on my face,

in prayer,

in silence,

using spare moments to feed myself things that helped repair parts of me mentally and spiritually.

It also forced me to sit with difficult questions:

• Where am I really at in life right now?

• Why have I turned to distractions in certain seasons?

• Why have there been moments where I struggled to believe in the things of GOD…or even in myself?

  
  

Lately I’ve been examining my heart posture even more — especially regarding both past and present decisions.

Am I convincing myself that I’m “okay” with only pleasing GOD through obedience because deep down I don’t expect anything else from my work?

Or am I afraid that if the music starts gaining more attention and producing the “blessings” I once chased after, I’ll accidentally turn it into an idol?

Many Mansions is literally a track illustrating that tension.

Wanting excellence…but sometimes wanting it according to my standards.

Because if I’m honest, there are moments where I don’t want the humbleness and meekness of GOD.

Sometimes I teeter between wanting to hear:

“Well done” from Him…

and “that’s dope” from the world around me.

And lately, some of these internal battles have even started spilling into other areas of my life through opportunities I’ve waited years for finally appearing.

Is this GOD opening doors?

Or is it the enemy dangling another trap in front of me?

And if I walk away from certain opportunities, is it because of self-doubt…or because I’m finally learning to trust GOD’s plan and provision over my own strategy?

Truthfully, I don’t fully know yet.

But what I have become more certain of after this week is that I need to lean fully into His plans — trusting that He’ll provide everything in His timing and through His strategy, not mine.

I’ll share a wild situation from this week that really helped confirm that for me.

Before Vol. III dropped, I built out a full content strategy with designated days for recording and posting so I could stay productive while balancing work and home life.

But once this content week started, everything immediately went off the rails.

One day I needed complete rest just to regroup.

Another day my iPhone storage was completely cooked, and I couldn’t clear enough space to record.

Then came the day I was supposed to record the video discussing the message behind Many Mansions.

Everything was smooth…until it absolutely wasn’t.

At work, I was dealing with network outages and handling issues solo to the point of burnout — and that was BEFORE even getting home to record content.

Then once recording time came, the storage issue showed back up, forcing me to rely on old devices.

And as if that wasn’t enough, the second we hit “record,” an emotional wave just crashed into me.

The questions being asked started making me question myself in real time while still trying to answer them out loud.

Internally I’m sitting there like:

“Who are you right now?”

“I thought you were over these things.”

“Why are you tripping like this again?”

I still pushed through and finished recording…

…but I KNEW I probably looked absolutely crazy on that footage.

The next day, after spending time praying and resetting spiritually, I finally gave the whole thing to GOD and said:

“If this is what You want from me, and if this is what’s needed, then I won’t stand in the way.”

The next day came.

Time to edit and upload the video.

And somehow…there was no audio.

Part of me was shocked.

Part of me was relieved.

But now I suddenly had only a few hours to completely re-record, edit, and post everything.

And let me tell you something:

that previous 24 hours of prayer, surrender, and allowing GOD to work on my heart produced fruit FAST.

Because the final version of that video would have NEVER come out the way it did had I not first gone through the crushing that happened during the original recording.

And honestly?

THAT was the real reward.

Not the views.

Not the likes.

The reward was realizing that even in one of my weakest moments, GOD still had a plan.

Even through something as simple and superficial as recording content, He was present the entire time — working things together in a way I couldn’t see yet.

All He required from me was trust in His way instead of mine.